Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock

Leonard wakes and panics that he has slept in Herr Silverman’s apartment. His thoughts spinning, he worries what people will think if Herr Silverman shares that Asher abused him. Leonard wonders if he should have followed through with his suicide plan. He deletes the photo of Asher masturbating and destroys Baback’s check. He feels guilty that Herr Silverman made sacrifices on his behalf the previous night. He wonders if Herr Silverman spoke with Linda and whether counseling will make his life more difficult. Leonard decides to leave the apartment. Leonard writes Herr Silverman a note, apologizing and assuring the teacher that he will be safe at home. 

Outside, Leonard imagines Philadelphia underwater, as it is in his letters from the future. He waits for a train. The train takes him home to New Jersey during sunrise. At his stop, Leonard fools a security guard into letting him exit through the turnstiles without paying. Leonard walks toward home and stops outside Lauren’s house. He imagines making amends with her for the kiss but realizes how unlikely that is, given what he did. He walks to Walt’s house.